It all began at 4am on Monday, April 27th. After about 20 minutes of anxious sleep, I woke to call the hospital to see if they had room to induce me. She told me that they definitely could not get to me at 5am but to call back at 6 to see if they would be able to get me in at 7. So I had to try to go back to bed for 2 more hours. Ha! After reading everyone's Facebook status for the past 3 days and fooling around on the internet on my iphone in bed it was finally 6am. I called and the nurse said, "yep, come on in at 7!". ACK!
So I ran to the shower and started getting ready. I have never felt such exhilaration. I was so ready to not be pregnant anymore and the thought of finally holding that baby was so exciting. I had no idea what was ahead of me! We got to the hospital 15 minutes late and I was terrified that they were going to tell me they had to reschedule but they didn't... I got a room right away and a very sweet nurse. I got dressed in the fabulous designer hospital gown that was made for someone being admitted for gastric bypass surgery. I'll admit I was big but man that thing would not stay on me. It didn't help that it was missing a snap. I requested another one. I'm really glad I did because I wound up spending a lot of time in that thing. Anyhoo, they hooked me up to all kinds of machines and started the pitocin to start my labor. Around 3pm I got my epidural. I am still totally in love with that man! lol What a wonderful relief! So for the next couple of hours I didn't feel a thing!
Fast forward to 9pm that night... after watching Beverly Hills Chihuahua lol I was in agony. I couldn't progress past a 9.5 and wasn't going to... I spent the next few hours that way feeling everything through the epidural. They kept making me lay on my right side which would hurt so bad. All I wanted to do was sit up and no one would let me. By 10:30pm I knew for sure there was no way he was going to come out that way. I wanted my doctor but the nurse kept going... you know what he's going to say... he's going to tell you C-Section. I kept telling everyone that I couldn't. Of course everyone tells a woman that close... yes you can!! You're strong!! You can do it! I'm thinking to myself... Omg we're both going to die because no one will believe me! lol They left me with David and turned out the lights and moved everyone into the hall. That was when I had a complete nervous breakdown. I was bawling to him and telling him that I wanted to go home! lol He kept telling me that wasn't an option. Finally Sarah came in and I think I was finally able to convince her to get the doctor!
When Dr. Moore came in he checked me and said... oh no this is not happening this way. I agreed. So from then till we had a baby was about all of 10 minutes. As soon as I gave my consent, it seemed like all hell broke loose. Nurses are rushing in and the anastethiologist came in and gave me the good drugs. Before I knew it, ceiling tiles were rushing past my head. Minutes later they were pulling out my baby! It was really surreal and not the way I would have had it at all. I was on morphine and wasn't able to hold Eli for about an hour after he was born. I got to see him for about a minute before David took him back to our room were all the family were able to see him and love on him while I laid on a table being sewn back up. My hands were numb and when I looked to my right side I saw a big bucket of my blood. LOL
In the end though, I was able to hold the most precious little boy on Earth. I spent so many hours of my pregnancy worrying about having a C-section and how to prevent it. Now I realize that even though it wasn't ideal, it was ok and now just a memory. I'm already wishing everyday would last just a little longer so I can hold on to these fleeting moments for just a little longer. I can't believe the whole ordeal is behind me and it's over. It almost feels like it was just a dream!
I will say all of this has made me a softy... and pretty much anything can make me cry. I know it's the hormones so don't get too used to my new personality. I'll be back soon. lol All I know in this moment is that this is the best thing I've ever done and the most important thing I will ever accomplish in my life. It's really crazy how it changes your life in an instant.
Our new family of three
